为什么？

虽然已不在同一间学校了
但同样都是住在古晋
已经超过六年了，
为什么。。
我们都不成碰面过？
我是住在古晋吗？

虽然我和谁。。
都可以做朋友
但之间的感情并没有那么亲近，
为什么。。
虽然已很多年了，
你们的名字我还记得一清二楚，
而我的名字在你们脑海里。。
却是很模糊的？

是我太过于重视友情？
是因为我常回忆过去？
是因为我太过管事？
是因为我常常不甘心，
不甘愿把令自己生气的事给忘掉？

“好是坏事，过去的就让它过去，往前看吧 ”
虽然这是我的主张，
不过。。
我只能够不去想
我不能忘记

改变

每天早上
当我望出窗外，
看见你俩在晒衣服。。
那不是
我的任务吗？

每天旁晚
看见你煮饭
叫老弟
把饭喂小猫小狗，
那不是
我的任务吗？

每天下午
看见你把晒着的衣服收进来。。
折衣服。。
那不是
我的任务吗？

曾经
这些任务
不是
等待着我来做的吗？

我不习惯。。。

你们最近
都变得很客气
的对待我。。
也许你们会说。。
我变了
不过我能肯定。。
内在的我并没改变
是你们。。
了解我了

课业方面，
我现在已进入护理系第一年第二学期了,
在学院上课，
及在医院实习的生活
我适应了吗？
每天回宿舍后
煮东西给自己吃
这种孤独的生活
一天过一天。。
我习惯了吗？

常听身边朋友说，
"i'm stressed..."
我回答：会么？
我心想
你们要求太高了。。
我只要求成绩能够看就好。。
反正最后我还是和你一样：一位 staff nurse
。。为何要把压力放在自己身上呢？
也有人说我很stressful...
因为无可否认，
我不知瘦了几公斤
我上网查有关"stress"的文章
那些症状：失眠，紧张，头痛。。。
我都没有啊。。。

2009年。。。
课业，生活，环境，朋友。。
一切都改变了
我不要求什么
只希望。。
明天会更好

These days...

Today just finished my A&P exam,so happy that assignment done ,exam done,and the most important: holiday is coming!I'm going back to Kuching on Sunday,so starting from tomorrow after class,i'll be going out to enjoy myself!Like i'm a malay going to cekebrate Hari Raya,hehe!

Just recently,our college blocked all the entertainment websites!no more facebook, you tube(that's where i always surf) ,msn and others,only can google search,read blogs,blogging,read the Star news.....

Now the only entertainment here also gone already,what am i going to do har??They expect us to study everyday,sure will become psycho one!i don't want to be a psycho nurse!But luckily got this network called eBuddy,i still can msn through my handphone though

Oh ya,just receive message from our tutor that Deepavali got four days off for us!Want to go back?but ticket is expensive wo...then stay here want go where??still early la,can plan later.....

Around the heart of KL

Yesterday Yit Nee came to meet me and Kaide in Wangsa Maju,it's already quite late when she arrived so we didn't go anywhere,only ate our dinner and supper together and we talk a lot about our own lives,then later Max also came and joined us.Yit Nee just came here for less than one week only,so she was very homesick and was afraid to be alone,that's why she's coming here to find us...it's normal for her but i can assured her that she'll get use to it and will be able to cope with it as time goes by,good luck and gambateh,yit nee!

This morning after breakfast we went hanging out at the heart of KL,shopping at Sungei Wang,Times Square ,Pavillion,then last stop KLCC.I've been almost half a year didn't go to those place already,i think??so,today spent a whole lot of time there, satisfying !Yit Nee was going to meet her college's friend as they were having their orientation at Time's Square so after accompanying her to meet her friend,we continue hanging around.Actually we were deciding to take the bus back to Wangsa Maju as usual,but Kaide heard that from Pavillion we can go to KLCC within walking distance ,around twenty minutes.At Pavillion we couldn't find the backway out,got lost again!but manage it later,it's at the basement,..gosh ,i never knew there's a basement floor there,well ,that's normal but the great thing is there's a supermarket and also a foodcourt with delicious but expensive food there!I wonder why it's designed to be at the basement...

Now is the Rhamadan festival,at Wangsa maju here got a lot of stall where the malays sell a lot of food,we also bought some food for our dinner there that night.Staying here sure is an advantage coz there's a lot of shops and food,plus the food here damn cheap!But then cases of snatching is the highest here,very dangerous..

Tomorrow i'm going back to college again,after this week posting in the hospital we are going to have our exam,then after the exam:back to Kuching!...hanging out at shopping mall,i think that's the only thing i can do to past my time in KL??or else also don't know what to do?... lives are full of changes,that's my lives now,it's totally different compare to when i'm in kuching...Have i settled down in KL already??hope so........

Oh ya,Happy 52 Independence Day to our country!

Random

Long time didn't update already... a bit lazy,hehe..plus now i'm having my posting in the hospital, not much time also.....six weeks have already past,another three more weeks then i'm back to Kuching ...mid term break,go back one week only,a waste ho? I booked going back on Hari Raya that day coz all must have balik kampung already so it will be slightly cheaper..but still consider expensive la.....i'm now posted to medical ward,very warm compare to Surgical NT ,and also not that busy coz all patients are medically ill and they can ambulate themselves,while at Surgical ward,patients have undergone surgeries so they need lots of help,oh ya,lots of cases of influenza A,H1N1 in our hospital too,and it has become normal to us dy,next week is the last week here and i'm going back to class for my exam....National day is coming,finally got public holiday,somemore it's a Monday,that means on Sat after my morning shift can go to Wangsa Maju and can come back on Monday!Going out again this weekend,didn't study again...well,i believe i can do it last minute,gambateh!

days in hospital....

Today is the third day i'm posting in Surgical B north tower,finally get the chance to go to north tower,it's the new building,as throughout my last semester i'm only posted to the old south tower. Compare both tower... in north tower,each ward is bigger and of coz there are more room and more patients,the environment is also more cooling,but sometimes too cold also very uncomfortable,cold till i feel like wanting to quickly get out of that ward! This semester got few procedures like dressing,injection,off drain,serving oral medication.....got to get my crosses as soon as possible ,i know it's not easy,especially dressing,first time sure got mistake one ,need lots of practise...but my CI Puan Fazilla will not be with us for this two days and so we are not allowed to do these procedures on patient yet,hope this friday i'll got the chance to do.... Nowadays lots of people are sick,my college got 700+ students,at least 300 of them are sick since the virus spread from one person to another!With the current H1N1 influenza,everyone sure worries a lot la,and my classmate were saying that the college shouldn't send us to the hospital,especially for those who are sick should be self quarantined! My ward got a H1N1 positive patient ,and was confirmed last night,a four months old baby.Just now during my shift i was asked to give nebulizer to this patient,room 579,the staff nurse gave me a N95 mask,and i wore my gloves and gown before i go in.I'm sorry for the patient's parents coz i know how they feel when they see how i "cover" myself when going in..but i have to protect myself ,scared also.....the baby is very sweet,at first i thought is a girl then seeing the name tag then only i knew is a boy,ther first and only child.He was crying ,when i was holding the oxygen nebulizer against his nose while his father was holding and preventing him from struggling....

Friendship

Friendship is a Priceless Gift that cannot be bought or sold,But its value is far greater than a mountain made of Gold.For gold is cold and lifeless,it can neither see nor hear.And in the time of trouble,it is powerless to cheer.It has no ears to listen,nor heart to understand.It cannot bring you comfort or reach out a helping hand.So when asking God for a gift,be thankful if HE sends not diamonds,pearls or riches,but The Love of REAL TRUE FRIENDS.