一个女人的奋斗

寂静。医院里一片死寂。
子宫强烈地收缩着，一阵一阵摧心的痛毫不留情地席卷而来。肉骨分离的滋味不管经历了多少次仍然足以让人痛得死去活来。世上所有妈妈都是伟大的，分娩是一件多么神圣的任务呀！手掌来回抚摸着鼓起的肚子里的小生命，仿佛在安慰一位迫不及待想看看这世界的小不点。他这么强烈地挣扎，到底是因为实在太心急了，还是在抗议在自己将降临到这世界的一刻竟然是孤独一人的，没有爸爸的陪伴，也没有亲戚的祝福，她真的不懂，也害怕知道。
她已忘记自己是如何只身一人开车来到中央医院的，只知道在她最软弱无助时却是孤单一人，默默忍受分娩前的阵痛，保持着仅存的清醒意识，为了肚子里的生命而来到了这里。她也不懂自己是几时被送进手术市的，只能深刻地感受到骨盆的裂开和下半身撕心裂肺的痛，那种让人宁愿下地狱也不想经历的痛，却是世上最原始的痛。
不知过了多久，她努力地睁开眼睛，试图压制身体隐约传来的痛觉，只为第一眼能看见自己怀胎十月的新生命。熟睡的脸孔、白皙的肌肤、长长的睫毛以及彤红的脸颊，护士小姐早已将宝宝清洗完毕并包好了，如今宝宝安稳地躺在妈妈的怀抱里，他是那么的天真无暇，与世无争。妈妈凝视着他甜美的睡脸，无比庆幸当初自己终于放弃了打胎的年头。此刻的她，心里是无比幸福，却万般无奈。失望和灰心始终啃噬着她看似坚强的心。一个普通女子的心。
她看着宝宝的脸孔，他是那么的纯洁，仿佛天使般温暖了妈妈的心。于是，她的心燃起了一丝小小的希望和憧憬，拖曳着疲累不堪的身子，强忍着刚生产完毕的痛，她一拐一拐地走向邻近的公共电话。拿出身上仅有的零钱，她犹疑了。然而，一想起宝宝的睡脸，她仿佛被注入了一支强心剂。迅速按了那熟悉的电话号码，嘟嘟的声音响起。
她期待什么呢？那个男人的关心、慰问还是爱呢？她不敢奢望，更害怕知道。
“什么事？”日思夜思的声音在耳旁响起。他是那么的近，可是两颗心已是那么的远。
“我在医院…”她不懂自己该如何说起：该说“你又当爸爸了”？还是，“我为你生了多一个儿子，长的好可爱，好像你。”呢？
… …
“搞定了吗？”简简单单，明明白白的四个字。没有多余的罗嗦地从他口中说出来。
沉默。
她已满目仓夷的心仿佛被人狠狠的用锤子敲碎。失望，痛心，绝望，她的心再次死去。
挂上电话，她缓缓的走回病房。她小心呵护着宝宝，绝不让自己的情绪牵连宝宝。终于她也累了，目送护士将宝宝带去婴儿室。她总算可以卸下面具，休息一会儿了。那一夜，她彻夜失眠，一整夜都无法控制的低声抽泣，因为她不想吵醒其他待产中的母亲。

Merry Christmas~~

Yesterday was Christmas eve,a lot of my friends & juniors are celebrating it so most of them request for morning shift ,only left me and hui lynn who are afternoon shift plus three staff nurses in our ward to look after 30 patients,afternoon shift it's ok for us la coz we're not celebrating christmas anywhere,but the worst part is only five of us to cover the whole ward is a bit too over, lucky the call bell is not that jammed..but somehow we're still very busy with observations , procedures & new admission as the ward is almost full.....anywhere thank god we manage to finish all on time


How was the Christmas eve spirit in KL like?I have no idea but i can imagine those malls with those nice christmas decoration packed with dozens of people?....as yesterday night around eight something when i glance out through the window in a patient's room,there was a heavy traffic jam along the Subang highway....the patient ask me if it's always jammed like this,..huhhuh,i dunno wor,never notice,maybe lar...

Didn't go out today coz i want to spring clean my room and of coz pack my things :),...that's what i always do before i go back...my dormmates all went for their holiday already .. only left me, so i have to clean the dorm also...

Glad that tomorrow is the last day for my first year...fast fast...

I'm going back soon :)

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year to everyone!

Outings

Last few days spent most of my time shopping,coz friday was a public holiday & Saturday and Sunday didn't have class
...went to KLCC & spend the whole day there,entering every shop glancing at those interesting things ,but didn't bought anything coz those clothes are not my cup of tea...
...but then ate a lot of things lo...

Then the next day went to Sungei Wang with xin pei them ,we wanted to buy clothes for CNY
A lot of clothes,very cheap also, but then of course it's difficult to find a nice one that suits you...
I bought two dresses..ok ok la,i think i like it..
After that we ate lunch together at "Da Ren Can Ting",i first time eat there,but i think nothing's special,the chicken rice so small plate only,but cost only RM2.80 la,miss the chicken rice in Kuching , behind Hock Lee Centre which dad always bring us to....
Before went back i past by Pavillion,a lot of christmas decoration there so i took a few picture..
















What am i going to do this Christmas?
guess nothing..maybe cook some special things to eat...haha
Today first day posting in ENT ward..
..two more weeks to go...

Finals over

Today is the last day of our finals....for the theory part quite ok ,but for the clinical practice exam today,which is called OSCE...huhhhh,i know i did badly lo,my brain seems to be paralyzed the moment i enter the demo room :( Anywhere it's over already,so i don't want to think about it........

After our OSCE,our tutor Miss Lee came to our class and settle all the things with us,as this is the last time we'll see her for this semester dy,& we were so happy to know that tomorrow no need to come to class...so i quickly pack my things and went off to wangsa maju,my brother's place.....

Just came back from Jusco just now,a lot of shops are having big sale,some discounting up to 50% to 70% sale,coz now got the year end Megah sale carnival,and oh ya got the back to school promotion also......somemore Christmas is around the corner,i love looking at those Christmas decoration,it gives me a joyful feelings!

Finals

Just came back from class,yea i'm still having my final exam,sitting for the following subject:


1.Anatomy & Physiology
2.Pharmacology
3.Fundamental of Nursing
4.Microbiology & Parasitology
5.Surgical nursing
6.OSCE Practical

four papers down & still left the last two papers,which falls on next Monday and Wednesday..meaning this weekend no go out,boring weekend....Anyway, after exam ,can be free like a bird!

after exam ,continue my two weeks posting,then i'm back to Kuching!..one year is almost over,quite fast wor...now i know,if we look back :will realise time flies ;if look forward:we can only wish time will pass faster lo.....so,we shouldn't look forward??hahaz..

Exam makes me craves a lot...eat a lot recently,i think i gain enough dy,have to keep fit & healthy ar...i want go gym now :)

All it takes is perseverance

This is the second week i'm posted at Surgical Ward already.The bad things about here is:damn busy ward coz all patients have undergone various surgeries and so cannot move their limbs with normal power,but the good thing is there's a lot of procedure here for us to do:dressings,off drain ,injection.....glad that i can obtain all these crosses dy.

This few days a lot of things happen in this ward,not serious things i mean,just small things that make we student nurse & also our clinical instuctor very frustrated ...perhaps it's because the staff all are too busy and it makes them very dull-minded,somemore audit is coming, for our hospital has been accreditted as the joint commision international standard so they want to create the best services they can while putting those pressure on we nurses !

This morning when me & Lynn were busy doing our observation,then suddenly the nurse manager came out from a pt's room & was shouting:why you all never take the breakfast tray out of pt's room when you all are in the room?!!& we were like...excuse me,we are not super human doing everything at the same time,somemore what are the pantry staff here employed for??of course after finish doing our observation when we go round we will help tidy up the place...just because the patient is the CEO's friend & u want to show how well our service is!Anyway i'm not angry or what,i don't mind u shouting or what ,i'm doing my part & can't always fulfill your desire.....One more thing is we were scolded for not taking along the pain score chart while doing the observation..excuse me,we always did & how could u accuse us when u didn't even ask us first and u expect us to pretend to raise up our pain score chart along the corridor so that u'll notice it??

I hate

staff nurses that are so rude to we student nurse,but some are very nice & i like them

manager that shout at us without a reasonable reason

fussy patient that keep on squeking

juniors that are not responsible & not initiative

seniors that throws all the things for us junior to do

those who keep on ordering me to do this do that(i mean classmate,not manager,staffnurse or CI)

though i won't keep all these pressure with me ,i may hate you today but not tomorrow,i'll forget happenings that should be forgotten
i enjoy my career being a nurse,i enjoy serving those nice patient,i enjoy communicating with those patient & it's worth a while to have a challenging mind & also a challenging life!

Annual Dinner 09'

Our annual dinner this year falls on November 5,that is last Thursday, and our theme for this year is masquerade.

On that day after our posting in the hospital,everyone went back and was damn busy with their make-ups and also their performance,but i didn't take part in any performance coz i don't want to be that busy and i only want to enjoy the dinner!hmm,but i think the main reason is i'm not interested?

Our dinner was held in Grand Dorsett hotel,a really grand hotel indeed,the ballroom was also very big,more than enough for 600++ of us nurses

There were lots of pretty girls that night,like all are going for a beauty competition,hehe ...but it' only once in a while ,otherwise no special ocassion for us to wear nice nice also,it's a night for us to satisfy ourselves!


took photo with our tutor Ms Parimala




Liaw Su Faye ,my jogging partner,hehez




Me & Pei Ching



Pretty girls...








A lot of people,waiting for opening ceremony ,very hungry and can't wait to start our buffet dinner!




My lucky day,got a lucky draw & won a slow cooker!think i'm going to always braise things to eat ,good for our blood circulation right?

Words of feelings .....

I've just finished my clinical posting in Columbia Asia hospital last week,as i was posted there for one week.At first i thought the hospital was quite a big and grand one,as the name itself also shows,however it surprised me that it was only a small ,if i'm not mistaken, 40-bedded hospital,i wonder why it's called Columbia Asia Hospital anyway,maybe the manager is from Columbia??


All the patients here consist of those old and sick one,bedridden one, but there's still one or two young one,there was a young adolescent ,20 years old i think,who met with an accident and he couldn't walk as his leg was paralyzed and he seemed unconscious all of the time ,the parents wouldn't allow we student nurse to enter the room,as they were very sad and couldn't accept what had happened to their son,i felt sorry for them and also admire their loves towards their son,eventhough it's clear what the future would hold for their son.Another patient was admitted here since young coz he was born with having fits,the parents hired a private nurse and we student nurse were also not allowed to enter the room,scared later he attack us??and so i'm not sure about this patient actually..

What were we doing during our posting here??I would say it's quite boring compare to my own hospital.Every morning after the staff nurse finish passing their reports,we'll start to help the patients out of the bed and send them to the dining room for breakfast in their trolley after the doctor has finished their round,later they will be sent to the TV room for some entertainment ,after that the physiotherapist will lead them in their physio activities and so the day goes on..like a nursing home actually,but it's not coz all the old folks here are very sick and they stay here for long term one ,one month the fees is about RM4000,can call a hospice maybe...there was a patient named Sangumathan,i managed to talk with this patient,coz most of them couldn't talk,some completely don't understand,and some couldn't recall back their memories..this patient Sangumathan was a loan bachelor,lives here for almost one year already ,never get married and when i asked him if he enjoy his life here,and he said sure....i would die living a life like this,hehez....well old people loves to have a quiet life and they like to have companions,i mean living with all those old people together and they wouldn't bother having an unmeaningful life anymore, right?

I have a lot of feelings during my posting here,seeing all those old people with their children all getting married and didn't have much time to look after their parents..seeing those alzheimer's patient who has lost their memories,those born with fits,that's why it's important for us to take good care of ourselves and to thank god for giving us the opportunity to live our lives,and also do take care of our own parents and never ever leave them behind regardless of their condition,remember that they were the one who bore us to live our life in this world!

Choice

Every moment is a choice
everything start with our very own choice..
every choice is our very own choice..
depends on how and what we choose..
then how things will turn out..
be responsible for the choice we have make..
it is our own choice..
just don't blame anything around us..
we can choose to be depressed or choose to be motivated..
is depends on our own choice..
not others..
what happen, happened..
be strong and face it..

it mean every problem begin with our choice..
every choice we make is a good choice at the beginning..
if it turn out to be a bad choice at the end and become a problem..
not to blame this and that..
blame ourselves who decided to be that way..
but well..
no worries, problem is fun..


' NO problem.. NO fun.. '

*thumbs up*
that's very true..
down part of our life bring our life more meaningful..
if there is no challenge or obstacle..
life sucks..

well..
life is full of choice..
so..
CHOOSE..
if we don't know what we want today..
don't talk about future..
set a target for life from now onwards..


written by a drowned victim who wanted to be someone extraordinary but unfortunately life was cut short when he was 20.... although they say "forget the past,live today,hope for tomorrow",...guess the most important is to live happily and to obtain our aim today and not to expect too much?

Deepavali Break

Just came back from KLCC just now,have a real good time hanging out with yit nee,max and kaide them.We wanted to watch movies,but there were no special movie to watch,and so we just hang around ,eat ,and most of our time are spent at Kinokuniya and the toy shop!Imagine two old boys ,acting like a five year old boys,walking into a big toyshop and playing around with all the toys... me and yit nee were laughing,hahahaha!The main reason we wanted to meet up today is to celebrate yit nee's birthday,it's tomorrow actually but we'll only be free today.Anyway,i'm going to wish yit nee a happy birtday first,but this wish will only be activated at 12pm later,and so i'm the first one to wish her then,hahaz!The thought that yit nee is going to study and stay in this country for quite a long time really console me,at least there's a closer friend to accompany me under this different sky for the next seven years..or for my whole future?Somemore got a doctor for me to consult,free one,haha!


As i'm now having my Deepavali break ,there's four free days for me to spend.Didn't go anywhere actually,most of my time are spent hanging around at Jusco and the stretch of street in Wangsa Maju,coz i have no idea where to go and somemore no one to go with also.But after the break,the following week is packed with exams and assignments!Just finished the assignment last night,took away my precious night but i'm glad mission is accomplished though..somemore have to concentrate on the coming exams,i wish the exam will quickly be over !



....,after so many months already,yesterday i finally went to see a doctor and she told me maybe its due to hormonal imbalance,really hope the tablets will work....

Update

Quite a long time didn't update dy
lazy?...busy?definitely not busy la..
...coz i don't know what am i doing these days also

The connection here damn "good" one
not only it's slow,somemore always got no line
afternoon when i'm busy,the line is ok
at night when i'm boring then there's no line
really pek cek!

okay now back to what i really want to post today
today is 9 Oct 2009
of course i won't forget what's the special ocassion on this day one la

Happy Birthday Mom!






A very best wishes to ya

be happy,
stay cool,
stay healthy always,
and most important

take care ya :)

It's true

Why i always can't befriend those indians & malays and can only stick to those chinese?
Sometimes i feel that i'm very selfish.........
Now i realise that all the chinese fellows in my class are also like me,being the only race to back off in all those activities......
Now i realise that their thinking really are different from us Chinese.......
Can't u guys be more matured thinking,and not to think of having fun only?

Jealousy plagues relationship

I don't understand,why do i have to face this kind of unfortunate things in my life?compare to others i mean?Jealousy really plagues relationship.I work hard for it,i have my own plan,i didn't ask for more.......and so what??!Your words always implies everything.I may always keep quiet,but i'm not deaf, and i'm not stupid! Perhaps that teaches me to understand more on how human being will feel when face with all those situation?

Back again....

I'm going back to KL today,haizz....

things to remind myself:
*holiday is over,it's that time again to go on with your usual busy life

*no more facebook,college has already blocked it,face it,so find something to do that won't let you feel sleepy

*concentrate on your coming exams,and the crosses that need to be obtained,let them get first if they wanna fight for it,you will get it in the end,in between, do practice on all those procedures

*shopping and have some leisure,but not too much!

*don't be so mindful about what others say about you,forget it and be positive!

*keep fit and be healthy,exercise!

*hey there,another 3 more months and you will be back....but don't look forward to it too early!


Cheers ^_^

为什么？

虽然已不在同一间学校了
但同样都是住在古晋
已经超过六年了，
为什么。。
我们都不成碰面过？
我是住在古晋吗？

虽然我和谁。。
都可以做朋友
但之间的感情并没有那么亲近，
为什么。。
虽然已很多年了，
你们的名字我还记得一清二楚，
而我的名字在你们脑海里。。
却是很模糊的？

是我太过于重视友情？
是因为我常回忆过去？
是因为我太过管事？
是因为我常常不甘心，
不甘愿把令自己生气的事给忘掉？

“好是坏事，过去的就让它过去，往前看吧 ”
虽然这是我的主张，
不过。。
我只能够不去想
我不能忘记

改变

每天早上
当我望出窗外，
看见你俩在晒衣服。。
那不是
我的任务吗？

每天旁晚
看见你煮饭
叫老弟
把饭喂小猫小狗，
那不是
我的任务吗？

每天下午
看见你把晒着的衣服收进来。。
折衣服。。
那不是
我的任务吗？

曾经
这些任务
不是
等待着我来做的吗？

我不习惯。。。

你们最近
都变得很客气
的对待我。。
也许你们会说。。
我变了
不过我能肯定。。
内在的我并没改变
是你们。。
了解我了

课业方面，
我现在已进入护理系第一年第二学期了,
在学院上课，
及在医院实习的生活
我适应了吗？
每天回宿舍后
煮东西给自己吃
这种孤独的生活
一天过一天。。
我习惯了吗？

常听身边朋友说，
"i'm stressed..."
我回答：会么？
我心想
你们要求太高了。。
我只要求成绩能够看就好。。
反正最后我还是和你一样：一位 staff nurse
。。为何要把压力放在自己身上呢？
也有人说我很stressful...
因为无可否认，
我不知瘦了几公斤
我上网查有关"stress"的文章
那些症状：失眠，紧张，头痛。。。
我都没有啊。。。

2009年。。。
课业，生活，环境，朋友。。
一切都改变了
我不要求什么
只希望。。
明天会更好

These days...

Today just finished my A&P exam,so happy that assignment done ,exam done,and the most important: holiday is coming!I'm going back to Kuching on Sunday,so starting from tomorrow after class,i'll be going out to enjoy myself!Like i'm a malay going to cekebrate Hari Raya,hehe!

Just recently,our college blocked all the entertainment websites!no more facebook, you tube(that's where i always surf) ,msn and others,only can google search,read blogs,blogging,read the Star news.....

Now the only entertainment here also gone already,what am i going to do har??They expect us to study everyday,sure will become psycho one!i don't want to be a psycho nurse!But luckily got this network called eBuddy,i still can msn through my handphone though

Oh ya,just receive message from our tutor that Deepavali got four days off for us!Want to go back?but ticket is expensive wo...then stay here want go where??still early la,can plan later.....

Around the heart of KL

Yesterday Yit Nee came to meet me and Kaide in Wangsa Maju,it's already quite late when she arrived so we didn't go anywhere,only ate our dinner and supper together and we talk a lot about our own lives,then later Max also came and joined us.Yit Nee just came here for less than one week only,so she was very homesick and was afraid to be alone,that's why she's coming here to find us...it's normal for her but i can assured her that she'll get use to it and will be able to cope with it as time goes by,good luck and gambateh,yit nee!

This morning after breakfast we went hanging out at the heart of KL,shopping at Sungei Wang,Times Square ,Pavillion,then last stop KLCC.I've been almost half a year didn't go to those place already,i think??so,today spent a whole lot of time there, satisfying !Yit Nee was going to meet her college's friend as they were having their orientation at Time's Square so after accompanying her to meet her friend,we continue hanging around.Actually we were deciding to take the bus back to Wangsa Maju as usual,but Kaide heard that from Pavillion we can go to KLCC within walking distance ,around twenty minutes.At Pavillion we couldn't find the backway out,got lost again!but manage it later,it's at the basement,..gosh ,i never knew there's a basement floor there,well ,that's normal but the great thing is there's a supermarket and also a foodcourt with delicious but expensive food there!I wonder why it's designed to be at the basement...

Now is the Rhamadan festival,at Wangsa maju here got a lot of stall where the malays sell a lot of food,we also bought some food for our dinner there that night.Staying here sure is an advantage coz there's a lot of shops and food,plus the food here damn cheap!But then cases of snatching is the highest here,very dangerous..

Tomorrow i'm going back to college again,after this week posting in the hospital we are going to have our exam,then after the exam:back to Kuching!...hanging out at shopping mall,i think that's the only thing i can do to past my time in KL??or else also don't know what to do?... lives are full of changes,that's my lives now,it's totally different compare to when i'm in kuching...Have i settled down in KL already??hope so........

Oh ya,Happy 52 Independence Day to our country!

Random

Long time didn't update already... a bit lazy,hehe..plus now i'm having my posting in the hospital, not much time also.....six weeks have already past,another three more weeks then i'm back to Kuching ...mid term break,go back one week only,a waste ho? I booked going back on Hari Raya that day coz all must have balik kampung already so it will be slightly cheaper..but still consider expensive la.....i'm now posted to medical ward,very warm compare to Surgical NT ,and also not that busy coz all patients are medically ill and they can ambulate themselves,while at Surgical ward,patients have undergone surgeries so they need lots of help,oh ya,lots of cases of influenza A,H1N1 in our hospital too,and it has become normal to us dy,next week is the last week here and i'm going back to class for my exam....National day is coming,finally got public holiday,somemore it's a Monday,that means on Sat after my morning shift can go to Wangsa Maju and can come back on Monday!Going out again this weekend,didn't study again...well,i believe i can do it last minute,gambateh!

days in hospital....

Today is the third day i'm posting in Surgical B north tower,finally get the chance to go to north tower,it's the new building,as throughout my last semester i'm only posted to the old south tower. Compare both tower... in north tower,each ward is bigger and of coz there are more room and more patients,the environment is also more cooling,but sometimes too cold also very uncomfortable,cold till i feel like wanting to quickly get out of that ward! This semester got few procedures like dressing,injection,off drain,serving oral medication.....got to get my crosses as soon as possible ,i know it's not easy,especially dressing,first time sure got mistake one ,need lots of practise...but my CI Puan Fazilla will not be with us for this two days and so we are not allowed to do these procedures on patient yet,hope this friday i'll got the chance to do.... Nowadays lots of people are sick,my college got 700+ students,at least 300 of them are sick since the virus spread from one person to another!With the current H1N1 influenza,everyone sure worries a lot la,and my classmate were saying that the college shouldn't send us to the hospital,especially for those who are sick should be self quarantined! My ward got a H1N1 positive patient ,and was confirmed last night,a four months old baby.Just now during my shift i was asked to give nebulizer to this patient,room 579,the staff nurse gave me a N95 mask,and i wore my gloves and gown before i go in.I'm sorry for the patient's parents coz i know how they feel when they see how i "cover" myself when going in..but i have to protect myself ,scared also.....the baby is very sweet,at first i thought is a girl then seeing the name tag then only i knew is a boy,ther first and only child.He was crying ,when i was holding the oxygen nebulizer against his nose while his father was holding and preventing him from struggling....

Friendship

Friendship is a Priceless Gift that cannot be bought or sold,But its value is far greater than a mountain made of Gold.For gold is cold and lifeless,it can neither see nor hear.And in the time of trouble,it is powerless to cheer.It has no ears to listen,nor heart to understand.It cannot bring you comfort or reach out a helping hand.So when asking God for a gift,be thankful if HE sends not diamonds,pearls or riches,but The Love of REAL TRUE FRIENDS.

Happy Birthday to me

Have a pleasurable day today.Nineteen years old already...old lo *sigh*.Anyway ,i'm happy that i'm born on this day to have the opportunity to experience life in this world,glad that for the past 18 yrs i've gone through life full of sadness,difficulties and also happiness,and that made me less naive....glad to have nice and caring friends around me...glad to have stritct yet caring parents to mould me into a good person and to guide me towards a better future....glad that i have my own needs,food and water as compared to those poor Africans...in conclusion,i'm glad i'm born to have everything that gives me pleasure and benefits.Most important in this post is...i want to thank all my friends for your birthday greetings...thanks to my dearest mom and dad for calling me to greet me .....thanks to my college friends Xin Pei and Pei Ching for their nice present,..thanks to my classmate for the birthday song..Thank you very much o!

Sundays

Today is Sunday,again another week has past.Yesterday i went to Subang Parade with my fellow senior and only reached home at about eight,really tired ,maybe it's bcoz i'm also having sore throat,got the virus from my brother last week,though i'm not going to eat any medicine so that my body won't be so dependent to these drug nxt time,just drink lots of water.....I didn't go out today,staying in the hostel all by myself,all my dormmates went off already.So i decided to clean my room,clean my fan,sure is dusty,just imagine how much dust i've breath in!Staying here sure is unhealthy!Mopping the floor,arranging my messy stuff and it all took me about 3 hrs ,i think,to accomplish it...then in the evening i went skipping rope at the college's compound,dad always remind me to always exercise,...so i brought the rope from Kuching since it's the most easiest form of exercise!...Study?i just read through the notes ,don't know go into my brain ma?I think it's called reading n not studying!This semester one of our subject is Microbiology and Parasitology,i quite like it....as i go through the notes just now,it reminds me of those days with those tough biology test *sigh*.Although i've learnt it before,but i kinda forget already,besides,it's in English,so have to try to translate it and to refresh my mind.....For me,i find my college's life ..lonely,quiet..longing for nothing except to be able to see my family and fellow friends,wad bout u guys?..really miss my days in 一中...

Weekends

Just came back from KLCC now and i've bought a dress for my annual dinner ,actually it's in November,since now got mega carnival sale,so must quickly grab the chance lo...

This morning after my bro have already gone to school,i go walk walk around Wangsa Maju before going to KLCC.As i walk along the stretch of shop ,from far far away i saw a guy that looks so familiar,looks like 义能，but i thought it couldn't be....when i came out from a shop and he was passing by,both of us were so surprise,only then i know it's really him!I didn't even know he's studying at the same college and also the same course as my bro.He's staying in a condo with 凯得 at the meantime and 've also heard that 增光 is staying just a few lorong away from my bro's house..how i wish my college is here and i could stay here instead of being isolated at Shah Alam!

义能 wanted to go back to the condo to wake up 凯得 since they wanna teman me，but i told them to take their own time while i go first.....we went there lepak lepak around,and 凯得 ask me what i want to buy?"i want to buy dress"...i know guys usually don't like to teman gals to buy dress one so i also paiseh arh ,but he insist that he won't,...i can bet with him lo coz i'm very choosy and can take one whole day just to choose a dress!So instead we just walk around first,there were many sale and of coz lots of people,..donno why he likes toys so much,he'll enter every single toyshop!At the end really donno want to go where..go eat?not hungry yet..so last solution,go MPH!After that,凯得 said he wanna go back first coz he's going to the Japanese Festival..lol,no chance to go to Kuching festival this year..So i continue shopping and spent almost seven hours there before i came back!

I'm going to walk to JUSCO now,really enjoy myself this weekend!

Holiday is over.......

Holiday is almost over and i'm going back to KL tomorrow,haih......i really really really don't feel like going back to that place!

Have to continue with my lonesome and busy life again,but i'm glad that first semester is over and at least semester two would be more interesting,i mean compare to first semester, where we only learn the basic things only,next semester we'll learn how to perform dressing,injection,oral medication,tepid sponging......

Time really flies during the holidays!What am i doing during these two weeks?Eat,sleep,eat sleep...but of cuz in between
1.i've been quite fruitful by helping out my parents with our own business

2.went to 一中 to get my graduation photo and 毕业特刊 (but they ran out of stock)
then hanging around the school ,really misses the old days.....when i walk by SS3A,they were having 数学总测，the same scenery,same time,same teacher(Saturday fourth period,Hong chung)..that was a year before though,and i remembered it made my head spin around after the exam!

3.i cut my hair short,not that short la,still quite long,dad cut for me one,..hope my hair won't drop that much

4.surfing internet,facebook-ing

5.going out for dinner with family members..thx dad for always planning on where to bring us to eat since i'm coming back,thank you very much o ^.^

6.sometimes i walk alone from my house to the shopping centre at Tabuan jaya in the evening,guess i walk too much in KL and it has become usual for me....

7.play monopoly with shiew chin and swee teng,long time didn't play and i was like totally forget how to play !

8.sometimes i help to cook and do some household cores

Everyone has their own lives now,some have just left,some in kuching,some are in the middle of furthering their studies in other countries.....really miss ya all and all the best to you all!

Some days

Some days i want to live
Some days i wish it's over
Some days i long to see
Some days i wait to die;

Some days i think i am fine
Some days i believe i have problem
Some days i am strong
Some days i am weak;

Some days i am closer to truths
Some days it seems far far away
Some days i think i understand
Some days i am just lost;

Some days i just wish
everything would disappear
Some days i just hope
you were there;

Some days i have a feeling
one day everything
will be alright
and that day is
closer than ever;

回家

回来古晋也已经有四天了....星期日那天才发现到Airasia有给固定的 seat number,也不知为什么那么倒霉被排坐在最后一排，而且那排就只有我一个人！坐在我前面的是一个二十多岁的..头发染到黄黄..应该也是古晋人吧，他问我：“你是来这里工作？”，“没有啊，我在这里念书”.....“放假了？”,“是”...“你在古晋住在哪里？”...问一大堆问题,还跟我讨电话号码,我说我没电话,他就给我他的电话号码,还叫我记得打给他??对不起,请不要害我要换自己的电话号码!!
回家感觉真爽，好久没在古晋，发现到有几栋不知是什么建筑物都已建好了，还有就是Tabuan Jaya 有一排树被砍掉了，只留下几只树干！破坏这里的美景..天气都已经够热了，就应该多种一点树嘛！家里还是我最喜欢的那老样子，老爸老妈和弟弟也还是我印象中的那老样子，没变啦，很高兴看到他们,不过他们看到我就吓死，尤其是老爸心疼捻个不停：“怎么变那么廋？！！”说要在这两个星期内养我到起五公斤为止！*不要肥死我* 家里的狗oxy，过年我看到它也只不过是小小的puppy,现在也长大了，每天吃两粒鸡蛋，难怪比我还要壮啦！另外一只就是老爸刚买的rodwiller(amy,我相信你，就是这样spell!)，很久以前就听他说要买，不过现在才终于买了？老爸老妈两个孩子已出去念书了，要把它当孩子作伴？？下个星期又要回去开始忙碌的生活，haizzzz.....所以就要好好享受这两个星期.在古晋做什么呢？做废洛，本来就是回来玩的嘛！目前为止已吃过：kolo mee,kueh chap,laksa,鼎边湖（现在才知道有这样的东西？？）...还要继续吃！

Back to Kuching

I'm now at the LCCT waiting for my flight,three more hours and finally i'm back to Kuching!....Yesterday me and my college fellow went to Summit to play bowling,it was part of the student's activities,so we don't have to work,everyone was so happy!Although i can't really play,but it's quite fun,just simply throw and cheer if win,or sigh if lose!After that in the evening,i went shopping at JUSCO in Wangsa Maju and bought some food to bring back to Kuching-Gardenias,everyone's favourite!...Hope that i'll enjoy myself in Kuching...got to go now

Time flies....

Time really flies.Can't imagine i've already stayed here for almost five months.I remembered i was counting on the days left for me to go back and that was months ago though.I was very moodless to think that there's still few months to go at that time,seems like ages!Now i'm very happy to think that i'm going back next week^_^I've heard bro that dad has just bought a new puppy,a wrought railer(wrong spelling,can anyone tell me how to spell?),and i was damn surprise that dad didn't tell me about this,maybe dad wants to surprise me??Anyway can't wait to go back and see my friends ,mom and dad,puppies and kitties and to sleep in my air-conditioned room!Long time didn't drive liao,must always drive when i go back coz license is going to expire liao....Tomorrow result will be released,hope that i'll do well enough in my exam.......Today is Father's Day,Happy Father's Day to my dearest dad,it has already been five months since i last saw you,dad.....Happy Father's Day to every loving father in the world!

...又过一个星期

终于今天是星期五了，这星期生活也过得如此啦，每天医院实习后，回去宿舍....就这样一天过一天...在医院呢，病人也蛮多的，我们在 Medical ward(内科) 的这星期也蛮忙一下。明天我是morning shift,上班后就直接去Wangsa Maju,阿姨住那里，哥也刚般到那边附近住...外公外婆也刚从古晋飞来。其实我上星期已去过了，离我这里蛮远，一个在南，一个在北...外公说这星期他会从古晋准备大餐回来，叫我过来....真历害，他这星期一飞回古晋，今天又飞回来了，有airasia的special offer就是那么的方便！....

I'm now reading this book,which i've borrowed from my junior...so that i'm not that boring ....
It's a nice book to read,anyone who've already read this book?It's all about "life",our life will change from one phase to another,and in between we'll experience lot's of sorrow and anger,this book gives us confidence in pursuing happiness ....Yesterday and the day before was Hari Gawai,unfortunately only Sarawak is celebrating it and there's no public holiday for other states,pity those natives who are working overseas or who are out station....I'm working afternoon shift today,the hospital is quite crowded nowadays,many people fall sick and with the current H1N1 outbreak,our hospital are now checking for ppl with sign and symtom of this disease,but i think it's useless lah...they will ask if we have travelled to other country,if we have fever........even if i have cough,i wouldn't say and they also don't know???Who wants to be admitted??

End of semester

Time past quite fast ,first semester has already ended.Starting from tomorrow i'm going for my posting.I'm being posted to medical ward for two weeks and another two weeks at surgical ward,then finally i'm going back to my beloved Kuching!I've already booked my ticket,going back at 28 June and return on 12 July,hmm...another 4 more weeks left,can't wait,but i know time past very fast one!Ok,let me talk about what i'm doing during this month.12 of May was the International Nurses Day,so our college celebrated it by organising a trip to Desa Waterpark,the weather was damn hot ,luckily i didn't get sunburned!The task force also gave each of us a glass with a "Happy Nurses Day" written on it,quite nice....during the three exam weeks,everyday its the same..morning go to class,afternoon chilling around and sometimes took nap.The weather here was damn hot and i rarely had enough sleep!Then,yesterday was my senior's birthday,so we went out together.First stop was Subang Parade,then we took the bus to The Summit,after that,we walk to MY DIN hypermart to buy some groceries.There were lots of people and only then i realised that now is the midterm holiday for primary and secondary school,...do miss all those days at 一中...May has ended and June is coming,that's all for my life as a student nurse.

Exam....

Sorry coz i've already almost a month didn't update my blog liao!I'm having my exam during last three weeks and have just finished my exam last friday,so relieve!...for the exam,the theory part is quite ok,except for the environmental health.You see,our tutor for this subject is Mr Kuhan an external one,and they say he's a master degree graduate!The question that came out was 1.Describe the disaster that took place in Minamata bay,japan 2.Draw a diagram and describe the sewage treatment plant.....and everyone was unable to answer it,and i also don't know what i'm writing..what does these question have to do with this course??Master graduate ma,he's hundred times smarter than us!!For the practical part,i only hope that i can pass!There were five station in this part,everyone have to be perfect by following each step,..the scarry part is :if you've done wrong the fist step,then they won't give marks for the following steps,that means it's considered fail for that station!...Result will be realease in three more weeks time,i pray n i pray n i pray.....

Labour Day

Went to Sunway Piramid with four of my seniors on Labour Day.I think the last time i came here was nine years ago and i remembered i got very sick due to the hot weather at Sunway Lagoon,now the weather here is also damn hot one!....i don't see there were many people on that day...actually it's because the shopping centre is too big and the people here are like small ants ...There was a fashion show on that day but we didn't get to see it becourse we went back earlier and it haven't started...Lot's of people were skiing at the Sunway Ice,never ski before..,..,must try it one day as my tutor also advise us:"don't waste your lives!"...has an enjoyable day today.

"Thank You" ...

This big cake was given by one of our patient,Nirmala Cecilia David.She's under Dr David, who is her brother..she's the most kindest and sweet patient I've ever met,so paiseh...she was so kind to us and still she brought us this cake,...thx very much and we also feel happy for her promt recovery.....Long time didnt eat cake,my favourite:coffee flavour,maybe the nxt time i have a chance to eat cake is on CNY,also good la,must not eat too much unhealthy food ah.....

Sime Darby Medical Centre

This is the hospital where i'm now having my clinical posting...with a sterling international reputation for world class expertise and technology dedicated to medical and clinical excellence.I'm taking this photo because the scenery is nice....i'm bonded to work for five yrs upon graduation by this hospital.Anyway the staff here ,some are friendly,some i wouldn't want to say....i like the environment here,should be glad i'm not working in a government hospital though...

很累很累...,..

终于一个星期又过去了，刚睡醒，很想继续睡，又想一下睡太多也不好啦。今天是星期六，我被安排 afternoon shift,很讨厌啦....没什么东西好写，各位最近生活过得怎么样了啊？

谢谢.....

一直以来人家都说我很静，跟我熟悉的人该知道我有吵的时候，也有静的时候....其实我是个很无耐的人....我静静，是为了要解除我的无奈...谢谢你们...常常都会关心我，劝告我，不过我只希望你们不要把我当成三岁小孩，...有时我真的很讨厌，毕竟我外表长得像小孩子，也不能怪你们啦....

低血压....

今天在ward那边...很不舒服，因为我真的是很冷，进去每个病房都很想把每个冷气都关掉。。昨晚又翻来翻去死都睡不着，半夜醒来冒冷汗，幸好早上还醒得来。。在ward里没事做就跟朋友一起练习测血压，测我的血压80/60mmhg,测了五六次也都是同样数据,超级低，....我也没怀疑，每天都很想睡觉，没有事做的时候就很没有精神，...在加上手脚冰冷，还记得去年我曾经问过生物老师，他说是因为我血液循环不好，较明确的解释也就是心肌太脆弱，没力去推动血液循环到全身，意思是说血压越低，心脏就越没力？？同学都劝我去吃一些supplement,...我知道很多人吃药来降低血压，不过没听说人家吃药来提高血压？？

又过一个星期。。。

刚刚才从医院实习回来，今天是星期六，我被排做下午班2pm到9:15pm的,很讨厌啦....看我身旁一个个都希望自己是am shift,当然啦。。跟我同样 pm shift 的人都在叹气，有一个学姐问我：“你又没有回家，为什么那么期盼。。。”说得也对,我赶着回来宿舍，除了要快点离开医院，也没什么目的，刚回到发现全部人都回家只剩我一个人，还好现在有line 能够上网。。在med/surg ward 实习的一个星期又这么过了，刚开始也都是学姐先guide我们...，attend 每一个病房都要认真access patient,懂一些基本的procedure.....下星期被安排去 Surgical ward,希望能学到更多东西。。。

First Week Posting

Today is the second day i'm posting in the hospital.I'm working in the medical surgical ward this week,it's quite busy in this ward today la coz all the 32 beds were fully occupied.Most of the patient in this ward are diagnosed with general condition like viral fever,hypertension,diabetes,anaemia.......they can eat n change themselves,so we(me n my senior) only need to do observation :take the temperature,blood pressure, pulse n respiration rate..,hourly on them.I only check the patients temp, respiration n pulse rate while my senior check for the pressure coz better let the more experience wan do first,i need to practice first,cannot play play wth patient's lives...When i check the pulse rate u know wad happen?got three patient said:"wah,ur hand so cold ah"...i'm abnormal so sorry miss^.^n got one room the doctor wth the staff nurse were entering to attend a patient wth tonsilitis,actually we don dare to go in at first,but the clinical instructor told us to go so we also follow lo,the doctor examine the patient and ask him about his condition,then suddenly he ask us if we've seen how tonsilitis is like..he show us by inserting a wood spade into his throat,forcing him to cough n there's whitespot on the tonsils(back of the tongue,near throat),will cause pain when eating n coughing....the patient have to sacrifice(pain) for the doctor to show us@=@....tmr i'm on morning shift so have to sleep early tonight...

和亲戚一起。。。

好久没写blog了，最近生活也都是一样啦，只是有发生了一件倒霉的事，那我也不想再提了，过去就让它过去。。。回想一下我在这里也已经两个月了，还要等多三个月才能回去，我问自己：时间过得快还是慢？。。还是无法回答。前天外婆打电话给我，问我星期六去他那里要吗？方便吗？因为外婆外公刚从古晋飞来，住在阿姨那里，离我这里虽然很远，当然我还是要去看他们啦，毕竟我也很久没看到他们了。昨天上完课就只好塔朋友车回他家，再走去附近的LRT站。去到阿姨家已近四点多，他们就带我到附近一间店吃甜品，请我吃一碗ABC,还有一块muffin cake,真是饱死我。等到阿姨和哥哥回来，我们就一同到附近,有很多摊位一边用餐，一边聊天。。他们都跟我说，以后我的前途会是很广，可以到世界各地工作。。唉，还有长远的路要走，将来就看看自己命运如何。。

Weekend...

Didn't go out this weekend,spent lots of time sleep..n sleep..n sleep,have to fill up my energy.Exam is coming next week,i did read some of the notes but cannot really concentrate on it,maybe its still early ,didn't have the urge to study...

生活。。

作晚八点半学书学到眼睛真是张不开，就一直睡到早上六点，然后就如往常一样跟Su Faye ，算是我较亲进的朋友，一起在校园周围跑步，整个campus 还蛮大一下，跑了五大圈，天还是暗暗的，然后就赶回宿舍抢冲凉房，平时都是我第一个用的，今天没办法就只好迟一些，。。今天老师示范 sponging给我们看，还有bedmaking,positioning client,..然后我们就自己练习。给我们这些初步学习者单单做一个bedmaking或sponging就要花很多时间，不过也好啦，这样时间比较快过。Bedmaking 和 Sponging ，handwashing给我来讲也没什么难的地方，就是要小心记住所有的步骤就没什么问题，至于positioning client,如果病人是那种超重的，除非有人帮忙，不然我就真是不行啦。。那也好，在ward里我有理由嘛，如果你逼我扶client我也没办法，我会尽力啦，不过万一出了什么意外怎么办？？

Shopping in KL

Today me and two of my frens,shu hui n su faye go shopping together.First stop was Pasar Seni,which they called "chi chiong gai",we walk around n most of the shop haven't open yet.They said this area is famous for its porridge,so i also go try it lo,many ppl there,business very good,taste quite goodla but its quite expensive 4 me...then second stop was Sungei Wang,the "sale" sign could be seen in almost every shop,lots of pretty clothes,my frens bought a few clothes but i only look around didnt buy la,my chinese new yr's clothes wear once only,everyday in school no go out wan,till now no chance to wear..if i buy again sure is wasting money only!So instead i go buy some foodstuff,hopefully it can last me 4 this month in my college,coz no supermarket nearby wan,sure have to buy a lot!Third stop was Times Square,just walk walk around wth Su Faye while waiting 4 shu hui still searching 4 clothes,we were so tired we try to fd some place to sit...Finally reach home at around 4pm,haizz...vry sleepy ...

迷路。。

这三天宿舍清洗水槽，所以不足水给我们用，没办法只好去我哥哥家住。幸好有一位同学也住我哥家附近，在他家吃了午餐后，顺便叫他载我去。。到了哥家已经三点多，哥已经跟朋友去新加坡了。收拾好东西后就躺下去，还是睡不着，。。。，最近真是缺乏睡眠，那些senior下午上课回来就睡觉，晚上我睡觉他们才醒来，灯开着还不用紧，歌开那么大声，讲话稀里哗啦。。根本就没有顾禄到那些要睡觉的人！。。。爸打来叫我不妨去外面走走一下，原本我是不想出的，因为自己一个人会有点危险，在加上虽然曾经跟我哥从家里走到超级市场，那只是一次吧了我当然是忘记了啦！且这一带住宅区有很多小路，我当然迷路的啦。。。想一下留在家里也不知要干嘛，就空着手拿着一把雨伞走出去，刚好从我家远望前面有一蓝色建筑物，foodcourt来的，我就记住它。。逛完很多地方后，不知我在哪里，打算回家了，走着走着。。沿蓝色建筑物走来到了公园。。seksyen14/28..seksyen14/18,怎么走就是找不到14/2，幸好路上遇到住在这一带的一对夫妇，他们就解释给我怎样走。。挠了一大圈，发现原来有两个建筑物都是蓝色的，其实应该是认那栋condominium才对。。。嘿，回到家好累！

真惜

前天老爸打来：“你同学的爸爸去世你知道吗？。”我：“ha!哪一位？”。。亲爱的朋友，十二月的时候跟你online,知道你多几个礼拜就会从Australia回来，还讲好要找一天一起出去玩，结果我来 KL后都没机会看到你，过年团拜的时候也没看到你。。我也为你伤心，曾经去你的 Farewell party,看得出你是位很孝顺，很真惜的女儿，接下来也要努力读书哦....

无题

今天星期六本来上课上到12:00就可以回去，就因为赶课的关系，所有theori都要在实习之前教完，须留到4:00。全部人都哀声叹气，赶着周末要回家，而给我来说也没什么，回去宿舍全部人都回家，自己一个人也不知要干嘛。。。去图书馆借了一本故事书，希望我不会那么无聊。。。现在是午餐时间，全部人都出去了，只剩我一个人班上写blog,因为回去宿舍怕没有line，冷气开着冷死我，周围都静静的只听到雨水滴在窗们的声音，想一下我以后在医院作工也是这样的吗？

想家

最近不知道干麻，就是不想讲话。。可能是因为忙着各自assignment，没时间讲话？我知道肯定不是啦，是我不知又发了什麽病。。作晚煮东西煮一半老爸打来，突然感觉很不同，跟老爸讲了很多话。。朋友问：“你应该是想家吧？”现在想起应该是吧。。。。

Exaa...m

这个星期 Formative 1 exam...要提醒自己不可以在浪费时间。。不可以在上网！Tutor 教完的课程我回去也没时间复习，讲义一大堆。。看来这星期要牺牲一点开夜车。。希望可以考好。。希望能pass,不然年中又要留下来重考，不能回去最亲爱的古晋。。

颓废的一天

今天在班上，我也不知有学到什么，tutor 叫我们 每一组上去present各自的assignment,而我根本都没听，几乎都在那边听音乐，看坐在我旁边的欣佩麻目的在看戏，玩game的也有，我算好了，直少耳朵没听眼睛还有看着荧目，还好没睡着。。就是很讨厌国文，政府规定一定要考额外的Lan subject,真不懂bahasa kebangsaan 是念来干麻，把时间省下来念护理有关的科目不是更好!马来西亚的政策是有直得满意的，不过我不能否认还是有点失败！。。今天是情人节，我在班上偶尔也会不小心瞄到周围同学与爱人之间的电话message。。相信很多情侣都是分隔两地,，有句彦语："distance makes the heart grows fönder"，那是真的吗？。。祝大家情人节快乐！

Chap Goh Meh^^

Yesterday was the last day of CNY--chinese calls it chap goh meh lo..i forgot already how my family celebrated it last yr,should be eating out wth family n tats all la..This yr no chance to celebrate it in home town...Shin Yi,my senior,also from Kuching decided that some of us gathers together to have a big meal,so on Sunday, me,shin yi,li ching ...five of us together went to MYDIN to buy foods for our preparation,but i only buy my own things la cuz dunno wat they wan to cook ma....went hostel with a whole bunch of food..chicken,veg,hotdog n dunno how many kind of mushrooms,they all r really mushrooms lover! I went to shin yi there bout six like tat,all food were already being prepared to be cooked.As there's only one induction cooker 4 us to use,and the cooker has to be mantain in low temperature to prevent too much smoke,afterwards the smoke kena the detector n the firemen will rush here!So we eat quite late ,bout 8 oclock,everyone were so hungry already...before we eat,we took lots of photo...our food includes:steamboat,men ji rou,suan tian ji ,jap cai,n bao cai(try pronounce it correctly,haha^_^) Seven of us ate together.As we ate ,there were not even a second of silence,it's true ppl said gals gossip more than boys lo!Anyway it's been long time since i last eat with frens talking non stop one...everyday here eating alone while listening to music!For dessert,we ate gui lin gao+laici+lenggeng,really satisfied my sweettooth!We talk n clean the table till around 10:30,then we went downstairs to see the moon,rumours said its the brightest moon in 52 yrs,but i found tat the moon got a bit cacat one n not tat bright...i went back to my room at 11:00,with my stomach so full,think i'm goin to gain weight! P.S:photos refer to shin yi's blog

Sienz....

Today i have my class till 4:30,donno why the tutor so waste time one,always leaving the class dunno do wat...lim kopi i think n not giving us anything to do,of cuz we enjoy being free but at least don lenghten our class time ma...i couldn't believe i spent more than half of my class time surfing the internet n writing blog,...luckily i can online through my handphone. Just eaten bee hoon tat i've cooked for my dinner,then nothing to do so continue blogging again...two more weeks for my formative exam to come but i've no mood to learn tat early....i've asked myself :"do i miss home,frens...."Of cuz i miss my dear friends,dunno when will we meet again ?or should i ask will we meet again??....long time didnt hear mom or dad's lecture...n i sure misses those busy old days n sweet memories in 一中...... Dunno why i feel very tired this two days,...have to go wash my clothes so can go sleep earlier now...

CNY

It's been weeks since i last update my blogs...my pc caught virus n it's not convenient 4 me to go to a computer shop here.Luckily i just found out i can online using my handphone.... Really enjoy my CNY tis year,maybe it's bcoz it's the first time i came home celebrating CNY after suffering from a foreign place.... On chu yi,i went to visit my paternal grandmother in sebuyao,bout 3 hrs drive frm home.We arrived quite late so we didnt eat together tis yr,after that the elders talk n chat to each others..while i only listen to their conversation..my cousins were all playing donno wat like gambling tat kind of thing...but i lack the playful gene so i couldnt play wth them...we arrived home bout 6pm,...just once a yr we have our family gathering....i cherished it a lot . Chu san morning go tuan bai,greg lives nearby so me,pam,n doreen long bang his car.it's been long time since i last saw greg...first we went to chu chai house,then to attend jiaying's open house ,then to wen how house where the boys were gambling n lastly to yi ying house....all in all ,it has been a great day to have friends gathering together again,talking about their own lives... On chu liu,me ,pony,jiun n amy went to visit our teachers,all of them ask the same question:where ,wat u goin to study?..."n we have to answer the same question upon every visit...they gave us lots of advice n i found out our teacher's were all very caring n some of them have two characters wan..how to say ah..like some teachers r very strict in class but he or she has a heart softer than u thought!

Finally can use the wifi!!Yeah ...chinese new years coming,going home tomorrow,but still have to concentrate on tomorrow's test first,very hateful!Been here for two weeks already,erm...here also everyday study one la,from mon till sat 8pm till 4pm,longer hour compare to secondary school la,but its not that stressful coz not that much test.
My colledge here...surroundings are very remote,many blangadesh n foreign workers,so we dont dare to go out...imagine those bangladesh workers are so strong!I stay in the hostel most of the time n sometimes on weekends go out shopping with friends..been to the Summit to buy clothes,the Giant n to MyDIN last weekend,spent lots of money,felt a bit guilty!But here ,everytime go out..then money money de la ,no choice ah.
Heard that Kuching rains almost everyday n flooding everywhere,here damn hot especially my room ,the fan cant reach me while i'm sleeping,i think this is my first time i'm sweating while sleeping!!
will post some of my colleges photo nxt time..have to attend my afternoon class now,wish everyone happy chinese new year first!

生活

在报章上看到一篇文章。。很有感。。

"Carefree times are wonderfull
but wouldn't life be boring if nothing ever changed?
So,when a challenge comes,appreciate it,
learn to deal with it instead of asking why it is happening to me.
Life means change.
It cannot remain static.
It is always in a state of flux.
When situation is going to be gloom,
All we need is to make some changes and adjustments.
We must remember that we cannot have it good all the time.
It is a cycle"

这其实是讲到2009年将会面临的经济萧条，失业增高等问题，安慰人民的文章，身为学生的我们当然也没管那么多。。但相信各位生活中也会面对一些改变，也应该接受它。。。

My Name.....

Here are the meanings of my name..Tia Siew Phin

You Are Spontaneous and Whimsical

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. <em>You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. <em>You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

ermm...it's quite accurate...except for those wrtten in italic one...which i'm very doubtful

家

明天各个中小学就开课了。两个月的假期也过得蛮快，还好在家里帮老爸也帮了不少，总算没荒废掉吧！

是的，再多几天，我就要离乡去念书，心里是期盼的还是不舍？我想都有吧!
最近这几天，老爸跟我讲了很多话，有点哆嗦，其实平时也是这样啦，但我看得出他这次充满着不舍的感觉。。离乡八年，八年后还会不会回来？当然无法回答

“自己一个人塔飞机不要乱跟人家说话噢”，“贵重的东西要随时带在身上”。。。话说老爸脾气很坏，但他很关心我们，我很感激，拥有自己坚忍的性格，都没反驳过他。。老爸买了个手机给我，是新出的，功能很多，当然是很贵啦！而我这种对这些东西没兴趣的人，能打电话就好了嘛！给正常人来说应该是一件很高兴的事啦，可我觉得很可惜，很浪费。。但还是要感谢啦！再来呢，还买了个名牌运动鞋给我，而我的运动鞋有还新新的，根本就没必要再买啦。。

希望在我离家之后，家人都能平安无事，我不希望收到坏消息。。。