Love, lust, or just blind?

Long time never update my blog dy, i've been busy with assignments & also i went out quite often nowadays hahaz

next week would be the sixth week of my sem 4 theory class & the following week i'm going out for my clinical practice dy, so fast ei, anyway i should be happy that time can past by that quickly,what makes me say time past quite fast is because i get to spend my time more efficiently & wisely, i mean in both entertainment & studies ei, i'm not the nerdy type & i can't stand spending the whole day sitting at the same place doing the same things, i will get backache one haha...

hmm no idea want to post about what??
kay i have this feelings nowadays.....
recently i heard a lot from my surrounding friends bout their quarreling & breakup with their boyfriends
i was thinking...why is it all always end up with "breakup" & seldom do i heard of couples who remains & maintain...
if i were to have a boyfriend & having the feelings that i'll breakup with my boyfriend in the end, i wouldn't want to have or start a commitment with him..
for me "breakup" meant a lot to me & i would rather remain single than to experience a tragic breakup, i mean we can always be friends but not in a relationship if we feel that the guy don't suits you rite?

"LOVES ARE NOT BLIND"
i wouldn't deny that i'm somewhat quite choosy when it comes to relationship

but i'll remind myself that not everyone in this world is perfect & as a girl we shouldn't be OVER choosy & to know the meaning of true love, that is we shouldn't love a guy just because he's rich & handsome without knowing your true feelings towards him, that's called lust & not love

though sometimes i may feel lonely & of course i'll feel like wanting to have a companionship, but for a person like me who never have a relationship before, that makes me tougher coz we tend to be more independent without being controlled by our boyfriend rite? like i heard sometimes the girl wants to go out with friends & end up was not allowed by her boyfriend.....poor girl aren't we suppose to enjoy life??

Now i do enjoy my life being single, i get to hang out with friends, i get to go shopping & enjoy myself without being controlled by others,& independence means happiness

I'm still young & of course
CAREERS & STUDIES come first
god will decide on my future
just let nature take it's course :)